Honor Thy Mother

 My dearest darling Ma,

How are you??? Today is Mother's Day, I remember how painful the few years were after your demise, to awoke Sunday mornings as the world pays tribute to women like you. 

It has become easier as time went by and today, I awoke with a grateful smile, went to church and offered my thanksgiving to God for giving me a loving and selfless mother.

There is never a day that passes without you on my thoughts. In happy, sad milestones, I think of you. I want to chat with you about NBA, Trump, my work, and my friends. When I cry tears of disappointment and gladness, I wish you are beside me and embracing me. You know everything that is happening to me now, you see when I want to scream coz I am upset or when I just want to disappear for a bit from the haze and daze of my world. It is no secret anymore who my heart yearns and what my wishes are, in all these I know I have your unwavering understanding and assurance that you will not leave me. In fact, I never felt even just once that you left me alone. In those darkest days of my past life, the more that I felt your loving presence. How do I know? Because I did not give up on life and living even when I was on already on my knees crawling, gasping for breath as I struggled to get out of the dungeon of the unknown. Faith, hope and courage pushed me forward with your palpable guidance and prayers.

I am a strong, resilient and tenacious woman because of you. Your love remains to be my strongest inspiration to live life to the full. I shall continue to make you proud of me. I can't guarantee that I won't make mistakes anymore but this I can promise you, I will not let you shed of tears of anguish again because of me.

Happy Mother's Day, my darling Mamang. I love you very much and I miss you each and every day.

Mamang. Mother. Mitzi.