How Can It Be??

 We last saw each other about 26 years ago. I don't remember anymore where and how. I know that the breakup was ugly. Few weeks after, I heard you were back with one of your exes, then got married. Question... how many wives did you have so far?

Two years ago,we started to communicate again. Like we were long lost best friends.There the daily text messages, phone calls and video conversations. We talk everything, anything under the sun and moon. Our past, present and future. We laugh together and paused when the details become a little bit to bear.You share your dreams and fears and I tell you my thoughts.

Gradually, you become a part of my life in a big way..again. I have no trouble opening my doubts and disappointments to you. You surprise me with your patience and understanding, which is 360 degree opposite of the Jay I know decades ago.

You don't disagree with anything I say, rather you assure me of your respect and support. We used to fight and argue over the littlest of things.

We haven't seen each other yet. I want to but I don't want to.Afraid of how and what I will feel, realize, and decide if ever we do.

I pray to God. My mind says to keep you away from me even if it will shatter my heart once more. My heart whispers loudly for once, the two of us may be allowed to be together and be happy, finally.

Northern Star. Fate. Destiny.

Tequila and Tzie

 And tonight, tequila reinstated its tight bond with me. Five shots, sobs and sighs I need to release. Oh tequila, just you and me and my Senti Songs playlist.

Cheers to the world!!!

Tequila. Tzie. Tears.

My CHRISTmas Wish

 This is lifted from a Facebook character that gives quotes and anecdotes that make me and my family laugh. "She" is a make-believe grade-schooler girl who often is quite troublesome, her portrait is funny enough.

Ate Reggie found her again after a long while, and this time, our "idol" is not in hot waters. We say she seems to have made a marked improvement with what she currently has.

Small circle. Happy Heart. Clear mind. Inner peace. Private life.

I always look at the saved photo on my phone, her aura and chubby cheeks shows a carefree kind of happiness. Later I realize, what she has are the ones I want and need. No material things captioned. Not anything that money can buy.

They are my CHRIStmas wish list for myself and for all.

Girl Idol extensively made a huge leap of sense and sensibility.:)

Happiness. Peace. Privacy.