Hi Ma. This morning while I was prepping for work, I wore your earrings for two reasons: as good luck charm and to feel and keep you close to me as I take the Surveyor Minimum Qualifying Test (SMQT)- a Federal mandatory exam for me to be a full- fledged health facilities evaluator nurse (HFEN).
No one knew that today is the big day. No one. Not even Ate Ping, the U Girls. Only my supervisors and a friend from work. This is a bit strange for me as I ask for prayers from people close to me for exams like this. I didn't even inform the family. I simply dedicated time to read and review. I sacrificed the urge to read novels and even writing blogs, and my desire to taste and explore random downtowns of nearby cities. I kept on reading and reading to the point I get cross eyed from visual fatigue.
But I kept praying to you, asking for your help. The events of the recent past no matter how I, or the outside world perceive that it is all over , remain to haunt and daunt me. It continues to make me build walls making sure no one comes close again and have the power to break and crush me. I have been bruised and blued, I managed to rise after the havoc of pain and emptiness.
I am alive literally and figuratively because of me, you and God. Cliche as it may sound, I am back in the faith that He loves me despite the mountainous sins I committed. And with the successful result of the SMQT, I dedicate it to you. I imagined calling you on FaceTime to show to you my certificate and hear your voice saying, "Congratulations Darling." This is for you, thank you for being my sole yet so strong inspiration. God, thank you.
I am proud of you, Michelle. You are one helluva bright girl.
Achievement. Success. Inspiration.
